This time of year just brings back a million memories of last year when I was anxiously awaiting my precious baby. Every time I drink egg nog I remember drinking it before I went to sleep last year because it helped my heartburn (really, it did). And when I put on my coats I remember not being able to button them because my belly was so big. And I remember looking forward to Christmas as a family of three. I have such fond memories of being very pregnant at this wonderful time of the year. At this time last year we had no idea what we were getting ourselves into, but we could have never imagined the joy that this little girl has brought into our lives. It is simply indescribable.
We are heading to Amarillo in the morning. I am so excited for Christmas I can barely contain myself. Although Saylor doesn't get it yet, I love that we get to share Christmas this year with our little angel. And my niece, Averey, is 2 1/2 and is going to have a ball. I can't wait to see her excitement on Christmas morning. She called me a few days ago and sang me "jingle bells". It was so sweet! I love the togetherness of Christmas and am looking forward to sharing this special time with my family. AND celebrating the birth of our Savior, the best Christmas present ever! God knew exactly what we needed!
Monday, December 22, 2008
Thursday, December 18, 2008
All the women who are independent....throw your hands up at me
....not really!
Independence is definitely a fault of mine sometimes and a topic of many discussions in our marriage.
I am independent, I want to be in control, I dont want to rely on anyone, because I can do it myself! I struggle with this so much. I need to submit to and depend on my husband and I sort of cringe at the idea of that. Part of it is just my personality, the other is probably how I was raised. My mom is a very strong, independent (and absolutely wonderful) woman....and had to be, because my dad was gone a lot due to work. But regardless of where it came from, I struggle.
For example, since our move, I haven't worked. And I hate not having "my own" money. But why is this an issue at all? My money became our money they day we said our vows and became one before God. I know this, but I struggle.
Thankfully, I have an amazing husband that wants nothing more than to provide for his family, lead his family, and protect his family. And thankfully he loves me AND my independence. I am blessed with an honorable man that I SHOULD submit to. But I still struggle.
Independence is definitely a fault of mine sometimes and a topic of many discussions in our marriage.
I am independent, I want to be in control, I dont want to rely on anyone, because I can do it myself! I struggle with this so much. I need to submit to and depend on my husband and I sort of cringe at the idea of that. Part of it is just my personality, the other is probably how I was raised. My mom is a very strong, independent (and absolutely wonderful) woman....and had to be, because my dad was gone a lot due to work. But regardless of where it came from, I struggle.
For example, since our move, I haven't worked. And I hate not having "my own" money. But why is this an issue at all? My money became our money they day we said our vows and became one before God. I know this, but I struggle.
Thankfully, I have an amazing husband that wants nothing more than to provide for his family, lead his family, and protect his family. And thankfully he loves me AND my independence. I am blessed with an honorable man that I SHOULD submit to. But I still struggle.
Monday, December 15, 2008
Good Word and Good Friends
Yesterday we visited People's Church for the second time and have really liked it both times--YAY!! Both times we went with our friends that just happen to move here, Snap (R.L) and Jessica. He just got transferred with his job a few weeks ago and we are soooooo glad that they are here!! What a blessing to have friends closer than 4 hours away! (They live about 40 min away--but again, still better than 4 hours).
Again, it's beginning to feel more and more like home here! Finding a church is a big part of that, and we (actually Mas) FINALLY met our neighbors and they seem really great (we were beginning to wonder).
Mas left again last night for Fort Worth and I am trying to stay as busy as humanly possible while stuck in a house because it's FREEZING cold outside. Wish me luck with that! Dont get me wrong, Saylor keeps me plenty busy, but I just wish we could take a walk or do something outside to break up the day a little! It hasn't even been 24 hours and I already miss him tons! Just knowing he isn't coming home tonight makes the day drag out a bit!
Again, it's beginning to feel more and more like home here! Finding a church is a big part of that, and we (actually Mas) FINALLY met our neighbors and they seem really great (we were beginning to wonder).
Mas left again last night for Fort Worth and I am trying to stay as busy as humanly possible while stuck in a house because it's FREEZING cold outside. Wish me luck with that! Dont get me wrong, Saylor keeps me plenty busy, but I just wish we could take a walk or do something outside to break up the day a little! It hasn't even been 24 hours and I already miss him tons! Just knowing he isn't coming home tonight makes the day drag out a bit!
Friday, December 12, 2008
Home again!
Since I last blogged, I have thought of a million thought-provoking things to blog about, but just haven't had the chance to sit down and do it, and now I have forgotten most of the really interesting things I had to say! Oh well!
On Tuesday I headed to Amarillo (yet again) because Mas was in Fort Worth for the week doing MORE training and I get really really bored and lonely here in this place that I dont know anyone, especially when its really cold outside because I just feel really cooped up and it makes me go a little crazy! Even though 4 hours in a car with the kid and the dog by myselft aren't my idea of a good time, once we finally got there, we had a lot of fun!
We came home this afternoon and for the first time I was really ready to be HOME (in Oklahoma). Its finally starting to feel like home!! And of course I was sooooo glad to see my hubby! So we are going to spend some quality time together this weekend because he leaves for Fort Worth again next week. UGGH! But this time I'm gonna tough it out and stay here by myself! Hope you all have a wonderful weekend!
On Tuesday I headed to Amarillo (yet again) because Mas was in Fort Worth for the week doing MORE training and I get really really bored and lonely here in this place that I dont know anyone, especially when its really cold outside because I just feel really cooped up and it makes me go a little crazy! Even though 4 hours in a car with the kid and the dog by myselft aren't my idea of a good time, once we finally got there, we had a lot of fun!
We came home this afternoon and for the first time I was really ready to be HOME (in Oklahoma). Its finally starting to feel like home!! And of course I was sooooo glad to see my hubby! So we are going to spend some quality time together this weekend because he leaves for Fort Worth again next week. UGGH! But this time I'm gonna tough it out and stay here by myself! Hope you all have a wonderful weekend!
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